A Letter to my Husband

 

My love,

If I haven't thanked you enough already for everything, I'd like to say it again—thank you.

To begin with, we weren't ready for this. Unplanned and unexpected pregnancy did startle us and we were bit worried for a while. You took an easy stand but I was quite unsettled with the news and you were there to comfort, give me hope, instilled positivity and made me feel better.
You were there to provide me with the reassurance when I doubted myself whether I could handle this. You made sure that I rest myself enough and cherish the little changes happening within me and enjoy the entire pregnancy journey altogether.

Thank you for bringing so much positive energy into our lives, especially when I couldn't. As you might recall, I was not the easiest person to live with during the initial stages of my pregnancy, and then for quite a while afterward.

Unfortunate event that happened shattered me totally but you held me tight, consoled and loved me even more. Made sure I wasn't t left alone, rushed home in the evening to spend time with me, you helped me overcome the grief, shouldered my burden and sorrows.

Thank you for sitting me down and massaging my feet after you come home from work even though you wanted to relax too. Thank you for pampering me and making me feel so special.

Thank you for being so patient and understanding with me. Yes, my pregnancy was a wondrous experience, but it wouldn't have been without your support. No one loves to be at the receiving end of mood swings—whether it is a side effect of pregnancy or not.

When I lost control over my emotions and got angry at you for the littlest things, you were always kind. When things got hard, and I resorted to crying, you held me close and made me feel loved. You wiped my tears and held my hand when I felt like I was hitting rock bottom, and you shared my happiness when I felt like I was at the top of the world.

Most importantly, Thank you for making me feel beautiful when I felt far from it. I was so excited to witness our baby growing inside me, but at the same time, I saw my body changing. I did not feel confident about how I looked, but you made me feel so adored and cherished. You helped me get through the tiniest struggles and insecurities I had.

You have helped me through my worst of times, you've seen me in my least desirable state in the labor room. Walked me through the corridors of the hospital when I was breaking down. I did see the terror in your eyes, trembling hands when you witnessed the horrific labor I went through. Thankfully you were there with me all the while. Everytime I recall and laugh at how you clapped in excitement and relief when I finally delivered the baby.

It didn't stop there, things got complicated the very night, I fell twice in the bathroom floor and the next morning when I was about to fall, you were there to hold me from falling. Whenever I needed you, you were there for me without any hesitation or second thought. And even now when I struggle with the postpartum you stand by my side and give everything that you could possibly give.

When I had to go for resuture and the surgery I wasn't aware that it could be pain as hell, so do you. I could barely get up from bed, walking was a challenge. You were there to hold me up, fed me, said nice things to motivate me. I was so fed up of this never ending medical trauma, you instilled in me the hope that Sun will raise again no matter how deep it gets immersed in the sea.

You made sure that everyone treats me well and I get the best of care for 2months bedrest. At times, when I wanted to give up on life you assured me that I have to bear this pain for you, to live with you and continue to bother you for the rest of the life. Because of you, now I get to experience the best time of my life. It's been 6months post delivery and you stayed the same,  you didn't get bored of my non stop complaints, you treated me the same; lending ears to all my needs. The way you take care of our baby is priceless - you wake up before me to lift her up from the cradle, okay perhaps it's not such a big deal to the rest of the world but it is what it is for me. I see this unconditional love in your eyes.

You did and still do handle our problems very well, more than I could ever hope for. You deserve everything you want and more.

I can never say it enough— Thank You and Love You.